The Wheels on the Bus Go....

right over my head, right over my head, right over my head..... During a meeting today, I pointed out a snafu in communication that occurred recently at work. Several of my colleagues had also been caught by this snafu and had stated outside the meeting that it had been confusing and contributed to mis-communication. In the meeting? They looked at me like I had six eyes and two heads, while I was told that *EVERYBODY* knew how things were supposed to work and I was wrong. Then after the meeting three people told me that I was recalling the situation correctly.

I'm going to go out on a limb here and guess that it's way not cool to mention to the boss that the boss might have made a mistake, given that nobody seemed to remember anything about the problem when I mentioned it. I am becoming increasingly insecure about remaining employed and I sure as heck no longer trust anybody at work any farther than I can throw this bus that's parked on me.

The one project I have been working on, for which I thought I was the lead contact person may have changed. The discussions of how things will proceed are taking place between the rest of the players since they're centrally located. I, on the other hand, am out in the boonies and still don't have the "right" degree. I suspect that I'm not actually the lead person any more, but either this is a new development and nobody has told me or I'm supposed to just figure it out when I hear about group discussions and out-of-state partner visits at the last minute or after the fact. It's really hard to get excited about work when the things I think I am involved with evaporate unexpectedly. I wondered why they wanted me involved in the first place since I'm 2+ hours from everybody else.

Now I just need to work on projecting my happy face all the time. What I really want to do is crawl into a hole and hide.


Stefaneener said…
And how is the job search coming?

Seriously, get out. Go somewhere better. I know the economy sucks, but sheesh, there has to be something better out there.

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